im never going to have this much free time again
which is sad because I'm wasting a lot of it doing nothing because its easier than.. you know, doing something. sometimes i feel creative and want to make things. but when i dont, i feel it's too inconvenient for me to put effort into pushing my creative ability
my motivation comes in waves
I feel super duper motivated for like a few days then.. don't for like a montg
but id still like to do things in that month
it just seems like a lot of life wasted

just wanting to do it is different from me actually.. doing it.
sometimes i get started on something then just stop